Today I am filled with many mixed emotions. I am filled mostly with the sense of family. You know that feeling you tend to get around the winter holidays, Thanksgiving and Christmas. Thats how I am feeling today. Knowing that tomorrow I will be welcoming our newest addition to the family.
Chris and I went to dinner (by OURSELVES) last night for my birthday and we had a great time. We went to our favorite little Mexican restaurant and had what we always get and it was delicious. We talked alot about our fears with this new baby and the excitement we can hardly hold inside. We discussed a lot of issues that have been on my mind lately such as the upcoming arrival of a boy with 2 girls at home. Reconnecting with my husband always feels so good. We get so lost in our day to day with the house, kids and work that we sometimes forget to talk to one another, I mean seriously talk and the other person listens. Last night I went to sleep loving my husband more than the day we married. Its a feeling that I can't get enough of.
I find myself tearing up a lot this morning with the girls. The smallest things they do today will send a tingle to my heart and I cannot thank God enough for our happy, healthy little family.
Alanna was playing with her fisher price little people set...She was singing out loud quietly. She wasn't saying any words just a melody and it was so sweet. She caught me watching her and she smiled and blew me a kiss. Right there in that moment I started to cry and could not wait to get my arms around her small little body and hug her and never let go. Hannah even with her attitude lately has been super sweet. Besides laughing her butt off at me when I tried to get up from the couch this morning and could not, she has been by my side worrying that that any minute now I could go into labor. Hannah has went to every dr appt with me, because Chris is either working or sleeping, and Hannah wanted to make sure I was okay. Last week she stayed the night at a friends house and she called me like 8 times in 3 hours to see if I was okay. One time I even went outside without my phone and I had 7 missed calls from Hannah and 5 frantic messages wondering if I and her little brother were okay. She was on the verge of coming home to check on me. (sweet girl)
I cannot even begin to think that after Hannah was born I was done having kids...To honor my 2 girls with a little brother is the best gift I can give them growing up. Knowing that one day I will not be here and my kids will have each other will allow me to leave the earth and my family a happy mother.
I go into the hospital at 6Am tomorrow morning..I'm not sure if I will have time to blog in the morning or not. I asked a great friend to update my blog for me so hopefully she will be able to get the news to you in a good amount of time..If not go and yell at her and make her update, LOL.