I feel like for the past 3 or 4 months I have been in a fog. Just doing my day to day and nothing else. The stresses of taking care of 3 children, a husband, and a house were getting to me. Then I went to a dinner with some friends from high school. There were 5 of us. Sarah, Jennifer, Danielle, Jessica and me. If you seen one you pretty much seen us all. Each year we try to get together and catch up, and this year was a little different. Usually we would meet at a restaurant and eat dinner.
This year because of my circumstances we all met at Jennifer's house and she had food for us. It was so nice to get out and have friends and talk to girls that knew me inside and out and wouldn't judge. I came home that night feeling like a new person. I realized I was letting myself slip into the role of being only a mom and not a person too. The kids won't care if I don't out on makeup today, or the kids won't mind if I don't blow dry my hair today...But I realized, my husband might. Now hear me out here...I am not the type of person who tries to please other people and I need their approval, but I am all for keeping my marriage alive and not letting us slip into that day to day with my husband.
I now want to get the most out of my life. This realization also comes from this post. Yes, I still think about it everyday, but I try not to let my mind wonder to much. I want my children to have the best mommy possible growing up, so when they look back on their childhood, they know that there was no way it could have been better. So I guess this is part of my new years resolution...If thats what you want to call it. Usually the resolutions end up being forgotten by the end of January. This is my commitment to my kids, my husband and most importantly to myself.
I want to be a better person: mother, wife, sister, friend and self. Thats my vow for 2009. Whats yours? It can be anything. Leave a comment or write a post and come back to share the link.