weekend wrap up

Warning this is a long drawn out post....you were warned.
52 days until the wedding


Ok, I am here! This past weekend I was so busy I about lost my head. I will spare you the details and skip to the fun stuff, the shower. it turned out so nice. We recieved many great gifts and only have to take 2 doubles back to the store. Chris and I are so lucky to have friends and family the way we do. My maid of honor Sarah and one of my bridesmaids were in charge of the shower and they did such a great job. The food, decorations and entertainment were fantastic. Sunday night I was exhausted and fell asleep on the couch at 8:30. monday I had the day off of work because my mom, step dad and me had to go check out the wedding ceremoney site. We had to decide how we wanted it set up so we know what we are doing when we go there the night before....it was fun. the final stages of planning are coming along great. Moving onto the wedding invitations. We as in my mom and I thought it would "save" money and "time" to do the invites ourselves. We buy the blank invites and print them...how hard is that? Well the wedding invites have a posterboard outside with a thin paper inside and then a ribbon ties on the binder. we also had to print the response cards. So the outer paper was super thick and would jam the printer and ruined several of the invites. I had to take the rest to Kinkos to have them print off the invites. Whiel I was at Kinkos i was reading over the inserts of the invites and realized that all the reception info was cut off. We had used all the inserts so I had to have Kinkos cut to size new paper and then take it back to my moms house and drill with a drill the holes for the ribbon....CRAZEEEEE! Then after all that we still had to print the response cards. Fonally at 10:00 like 9 hoursa later the invites were printed....but not put together or in the envelopes. The invites were supposed to be mailed Monday....So on Tuesday my brother and his girlfriend came over and she helped me out the invites together by lacing the ribbon through the holes tying it in a bow and then stuffing the invites and the response cards ion the envelope. THEN we still had to address, return address and stamp the envelopes. 4 hours later the wedding invites were ready for the mail. Today at 11:17am the invites were placed in the mail bin and were sent out. No backing out now....
i will post pictures of the invites later tonight. Did you check out the pictures of the shower and more? If not go here.....
(I did not read back through if there are any mispelled words, I am sorry, spell check doesn't work on my work computer for some reason...go figure)

wedding stuff

I know this isn't the best picture, but I just had to share. Do you know what this is? Its our favor bags for the wedding. We just got them today. If you can't tell it has a double linked heart and then it says Chris and Tasha, April 28, 2007. I guess we are stuck with each other now...huh?

These boots are made for walking....

Merry Christmas to me.
Meet Mr and Mrs Brown....Their friends, Mr and Mrs Black should be showing up any day now.

The war at home

I've had a post swirling around in my head for a couple of days now. I've been having trouble organizing thoughts lately. I'm in a rut and feeling blue. I have trouble letting all of my feelings out online. I'm not at the point were I feel totally comfortable letting everyone into my personal life yet. Yes I say a lot, but theres plenty thats not said. I read other blogs and people make their life seem so great. Like nothing goes wrong and things are perfect. It makes my life feel wrong becasue things aren't perfect. I wonder if people hold back like I do. I don't tell you all when Chris and I fight, and yes we do fight. Not all the time but on occasion when we do, its big. We are in one now. We started to come out of it tonight. When Chris and I fight we hold things inside until one of us explodes and then everything comes out at once...we blame each other for things that make us unhappy. Lately Chris has had a bad attitude and today he finally let it out about the things that have been bothering him. Well when he has the bad attitude it makes me upset and then I let it all out about him....whats been making him upset???..me. We need to learn to sit and talk about things instead of blaming each other. We are going to be starting pre marital counseling soon. Its a requirement that our officiant is having us do. Hes actually my dads cousin...Hes a pastor. Chris and I don't attend church therefore we don't have a religion. My dads cousin said he would marry us if we attended one on one sessions with him before the wedding. At first I was avoiding them, but the more I think about it the more I think they may help. Chris and I are young and haven't had the expirence with many relationships and obviously we lack the key to making them work since we both found each other. Thinking back....Chris and I have come through a lot. I am the type of person that wants to argue, talk it out and then make up. Chris likes to say what he has to say and then walk away from the situation. This is very hard for me because I feel sometimes like he doesn't want to talk. But he sees it as calming down and thinking about whats going on. Are these things that normal couples go through? Am I over thinking this because the wedding is 4 months away? Or really does everyone out there have perfect relationships. I didn't think that I would be so vervous about the wedding. I come from a broken home. Both parents have been married 3 times. I want my marriage to work and be the only one. I am scared that sometime down the road Chris and I will not make it and get a divorce. I know I shouldn't think about this before the wedding, but these thoughts have been creeping up in my mind. Please help me...is this normal freak out mode, or is there something else that I need help with.